Today, our Dannica turns 21 years old. I remember the day she was born so clearly… the sweet smell of her little head, that first fragile cry echoes in my mind so clearly. I’m not sure why some of those first memories are more vivid than some of the last memories.
I think of Danni every day, nearly constantly, but this week I found myself wanting to take her shopping, wanting to get her a birthday surprise and make a special treat for her special day. The energy around me has felt spontaneous for days; like Dannica. She was so quick witted, so creative, so curious… so FUN!
She was also very tactile and as a small child had dexterous little fingers that enjoyed disassembling anything that was held together by nuts and bolts. These things were usually left for me to find as surprises such as the handle falling off the wood rack followed by the fireplace screen separating into three separate panels followed by the handles to the fireplace tools going missing. The most memorable to me was one of the legs to the kitchen table just falling over onto the floor leaving a three legged table balancing over her and the little pile of green nuts and bolts. She looked so proud!
One day while I was folding laundry, I noticed her in the closet admiring the shiny buttons on the sleeve of a coat. She traced them and slid her little fingers over the raised patterns on them. I’m pretty sure she was trying to figure out how to unscrew them, too. She never lost that love of shiny buttons and even as a precocious 8, 9, 10 year old still spent time in the closet lost in fascinated examination.
I have spent the past ten months or so surrounded by my new hobby of jewelry making. Each night, I sit on the living room floor and sort through beads, twist wire, experiment, create. It relaxes me. It keeps my hands busy and makes couch potato television watching (or floor potato as the case may be) feel like more of a productive activity. It’s been positively therapeutic as well as introvert appropriate.
This path led to Etsy. Each day, I log into my shop to see what’s new and what others are doing. This past Thursday when I entered the site, the first thing I saw was a photo of a beautiful vintage tin full of buttons! I couldn’t take my eyes off it and my first thought was, “Danni would *love* that!” I nearly clicked away from it but I just couldn’t so I bought it for her. I could just imagine the excitement in her eyes when she opened the tin and I could see her sitting on her bed laying them out, touching them, finding her favorites and putting them all back again. They would have become her friends, the way my beads are my friends; the way these buttons are becoming my friends, too.
I can feel her joy as I slide my fingers into the box, buttons closing in to cover them completely…maybe if I reach in far enough, I’ll feel her hand doing the same from heaven. Again, my child’s birthday brings me a priceless gift. It even arrived with this little card containing the image of a birthday cupcake.
Thank *YOU* Danni Jade ❤